I am so...

I wish I am more observant. Why everytime I will not notice and appreciate something until it is gone? Why am I not determined? I should keep on giving my try even though I know it will be very tough for me to get. Why I am always indecisive? I should let myself to know who really is and just aim for my target and go for it. I am regretted now, I repeated the history again and again. God always likes to play tricks on me. Once I tag them, they just no longer/impossible to become mine.