Ah Ma, Ah Gong

Today is the memorial day of my beloved Grandma. Time really flies, it's been 13 years since my Grandma leave the world.

That year I just finished primary 5.  My Grandma was sick for months, lying in bed. I still have vivid memory of my Grandma. She is the best Grandma you could ever wish for. I still remember clearly the encouragement words by her when I showed her my result (no. 4 in the class). She was really happy, I could see tear of joy in her eyes. Her encouragement, her praise, her advice, are really precious.

I am quite amazed what time can do to a human. It can flush away memories, it can completely change a person. I felt guilty, I tend to forget things which my Grandma once taught me.

She never leave me, ever. She is always there to protect me. Same goes to my Grandpa! I am sure they are always there for me.

Last few weeks were the lowest point of my life. I thought I would be able to face it , but apparently I am too weak. Without the support from my family and my friends, I doubt I could make it. But, thanks God and my Grandma and Grandpa, I finally passed this hurdle in my life.

I am glad and I learnt a lot from it. Sometimes we human beings like to take thing for granted, thought that life is always easy to live, but now I have gone through those hardship, and I shall become stronger.

Thanks everyone, I am so glad I have you! I shall grow up, I shall work harder, I shall remember all the precious advice. I shall appreciate every single one of you!!! :))))


p/s: Ah Ma, Ah Gong, I hope to see you again one day!! :)) Thanks for your love!!!

Everything happens for a Reason

I believe everything happens for a reason.

Dear God, thanks for making me to realize this.

I will improve from these, I will become stronger, tougher!

I will give you my best!! This is my dream, this is what I want to be!

Now I just wish you to protect me, guide me...

To survive this biggest hurdle, and I am going to work even harder!

I am going to be more responsible, I am going to change...

Now, I have done what I have to do, I am just putting all my faith in You.

Please let me pass through these.

I am appreciating deep from my heart.

Pls...

A Note To God

Dear God,

If I can survive this, I will not play a fool anymore.

No more play, just constant studying, learning and improving.

The weak shall perish, only the strong ones will remain.

I shall stand up, move forward and step across every obstacles.


There is no other option, SURVIVAL is A MUST!


Yours Sincerely,
Ickes

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I need to stay strong, I must...

But deep inside my heart, I am suffering!

I really wished all this was just a dream, that when I wake up the next morning, I am back in Malaysia

To be honest, I can't really accept this, this is too much for me! :(

Good Bye

I got hit hard, really hard this time, probably it will change me for life.

This is a lesson, perhaps a valuable one, or maybe this is a call, to tell me where my true potential is in.

Alright today will be the history, today will be the day which will change how I would be like in the future.

RIP, old Ickes...

Complicated

Humans are complicated creatures, it is indescribable complex that sometimes you wish there is something to be done to destroy all the human-beings.

Emotions & feelings, sometimes they easily take over Logic & Moral.  Mind, Heart and Action are not always synchronized.

Family, supposed to be the best thing in the world, but sometimes you just can't feel its existence, well maybe   at least for 10% of the population.

Friends, used to be an innocent relationship, has slowly evolved as we ages, now even whom you thought who was/is your best friend will badmouth about you. Never trust others always.

Love, is a complicated thing, it is easy to find if you just want it to be a short one. In a nutshell, it is difficult to maintain and to find a right one who will always be there for you. You need the perfect "Time" at a perfect "Place" with  the perfect "Person".

People, the community, is generally a busy body society. They made fun of others to satisfy their own happiness, make lots of complaints and maybe just like to see things  which make them happy but doesn't realize it will make the subject sad.

Please the World, Can you stop being so complicated?