Hmm

Sometimes I wonder why? Why would you do this?

Many times I thought I am ready, but because of something you said or did,  I just not too sure anymore ; (

Not there Yet, but Will Get there Eventually :)

So I have made the move.

A brave decision to move to Singapore for now.

Didn't get the Radiology Residency :(

However, I got the contract with MOHH to work in Radiology department as a RMO.

This is good as it will provide me with Radiology experience which I want to have.

I shall not give up and shall work even harder to get into Radiology training programme next year!

The Radiology RMO job will not commence until early May due to SMC rego and EP application.

For now, let me earn some locum money in NSW first!

And I shall go for a vacation prior to commencement of Radiology RMO job.

Signing off,

Ickes

Heavy Feeling

Going to leave Canberra for Christmas Break in few hours time.
I hate packing, always feel that the things I bring with me are not sufficient!

My room has a lot of flying bugs tonight, shouldn't have let my windows opened :(

Deep in my heart, am I willing to leave this place in 1 month time, for good?
I don't know...really

I am lost

I felt as if my life is drifting away from its purpose, I am lost. Anyone out there ?
:(

Exam in 7 days

Exam in a week time!

I would seriously need confidence and calm!

You can do it man! Give all your best this time!

Jia you!

Ah Ma, Ah Gong

Today is the memorial day of my beloved Grandma. Time really flies, it's been 13 years since my Grandma leave the world.

That year I just finished primary 5.  My Grandma was sick for months, lying in bed. I still have vivid memory of my Grandma. She is the best Grandma you could ever wish for. I still remember clearly the encouragement words by her when I showed her my result (no. 4 in the class). She was really happy, I could see tear of joy in her eyes. Her encouragement, her praise, her advice, are really precious.

I am quite amazed what time can do to a human. It can flush away memories, it can completely change a person. I felt guilty, I tend to forget things which my Grandma once taught me.

She never leave me, ever. She is always there to protect me. Same goes to my Grandpa! I am sure they are always there for me.

Last few weeks were the lowest point of my life. I thought I would be able to face it , but apparently I am too weak. Without the support from my family and my friends, I doubt I could make it. But, thanks God and my Grandma and Grandpa, I finally passed this hurdle in my life.

I am glad and I learnt a lot from it. Sometimes we human beings like to take thing for granted, thought that life is always easy to live, but now I have gone through those hardship, and I shall become stronger.

Thanks everyone, I am so glad I have you! I shall grow up, I shall work harder, I shall remember all the precious advice. I shall appreciate every single one of you!!! :))))


p/s: Ah Ma, Ah Gong, I hope to see you again one day!! :)) Thanks for your love!!!

Everything happens for a Reason

I believe everything happens for a reason.

Dear God, thanks for making me to realize this.

I will improve from these, I will become stronger, tougher!

I will give you my best!! This is my dream, this is what I want to be!

Now I just wish you to protect me, guide me...

To survive this biggest hurdle, and I am going to work even harder!

I am going to be more responsible, I am going to change...

Now, I have done what I have to do, I am just putting all my faith in You.

Please let me pass through these.

I am appreciating deep from my heart.

Pls...

A Note To God

Dear God,

If I can survive this, I will not play a fool anymore.

No more play, just constant studying, learning and improving.

The weak shall perish, only the strong ones will remain.

I shall stand up, move forward and step across every obstacles.


There is no other option, SURVIVAL is A MUST!


Yours Sincerely,
Ickes

:(

I need to stay strong, I must...

But deep inside my heart, I am suffering!

I really wished all this was just a dream, that when I wake up the next morning, I am back in Malaysia

To be honest, I can't really accept this, this is too much for me! :(

Good Bye

I got hit hard, really hard this time, probably it will change me for life.

This is a lesson, perhaps a valuable one, or maybe this is a call, to tell me where my true potential is in.

Alright today will be the history, today will be the day which will change how I would be like in the future.

RIP, old Ickes...